Temporary

Why do I feel this way,
It seems like everyday,
Trying to push on,
I keep falling down,
Sadness and anger overwhelm me,
And no ones there to hold me,
No one really cares.

You said that you'd be there,
When I try to contact you,
It feels like you're ignoring me.
I wish that you'd reach out again,
How it seemed that you once cared,
And I think about it all the time,
I don't matter anymore.

I felt it once before,
I felt so important once,
On top of the world,
It came crashing down.
I have no one to turn to,
They all left and especially you,
You seem to be ignoring me!

You once said I could contact you anytime,
That was such a lie,
You big liar you never answer,
You take your sweet time with my problems,
With my feelings!
You played around with my feelings,
Did I once mean anything?!

I've been screwed in my head,
I've lost my mind,
I need some help,
I turn to you,
You don't respond,
I thought I was important,
But no not anymore!!...

You said that you'd be there,
When I try to contact you,
It feels like you're ignoring me!
I wish that you'd reach out again,
How it seemed that you once cared,
And I think about it all the time,
I don't matter anymore!

I close my eyes,
You cloud my mind,
You are so important still,
I'm not important anymore,
I don't matter anymore,
When it seems like you care,
Please act out well,
At least make it seem like I interest you.

Remember when we were close,
We'd always laugh,
You were always there,
You'd make me smile,
Make me feel like I mattered,
But not anymore,
I guess I was just for a while,
I'm just for a while,
Always have been temporary.